It's a matter of Trust!

There are things you know about yourself but you don’t want to accept it.

Good and bad things. Mostly bad.

There is always something, you try to hide it , avoid it, run away from it. But it comes back to you in the end.

There are many things I love about myself, but the things I hate about myself probably outnumber them.

One thing I believe i am unable to do is trust someone.. I can’t do that.

When I was in school, there was this guy in my class I had a crush on. He was cute but  little weird. Being weird is kinda difficult in school. Not many people liked him.

So once, casually, while playing some stupid game I told (who I thought was) my best friend about this crush of mine. And she rattled about it to everyone. I was so embarrassed.

That is the earliest memory of having my “trust broken”

It seems silly now, but then it was a big deal.

My friends kinda hate me for not sharing stuff with them. I regret it.

Weird I am.

I want to share, I just don’t know if I should.

I come across situations where I dunno what to do. And I know, it will be better to ask someone. But then telling them about it, and trusting them with it….?!

I don’t want to be like this, to be scared.

I know people who have “BFF’s” whom they share their entire life with.

I want such people in my life too. Maybe I have them, or maybe I lost them already because I didn’t open myself up to them.

Well, I am trying. I really am.

This is the one thing I don’t like about me.

Is there anything like that about you?