He asked me to meet him at the tower at 6pm. Finally we were meeting! After a week of disastrous exams, I need a comforting hug from him. To restore my sanity.
The tower is the place where he first proposed to me. It was a cold November evening one year ago. We were shivering yet we stood there like maniacs and looked into each others eyes. Finally he said, “I l-love you” and blushed oh-so-much. I could feel my cheeks turning red too, and I smiled. We drifted closer and kissed. It felt as though it was a bright sunny day again.
I got ready to meet him and reached the tower at 6. He was already waiting for me. However, he didn’t look very cheerful, I guessed, it was due to exams. So I hugged him and gave him the assorted donuts I had bought for him. He loved them, they would definitely cheer him!
I thought he would eat them right away, but he didn’t. Instead he said, “I need to talk to you”
“Okay. “ I said looking all confused. “About what?”
“Remember, this is where I first told you that I love you? This is where it all started. And today, I think, I want to end it.”
I couldn’t figure out what he was saying, so I was like “What??”
He gazed into my eyes and said, “I want to break up with you.”
I could feel my insides melting. All I could manage to say was, “B-but w-why?”
“I don’t want to lie to you. I loved you, I really did…but..”
I controlled my tears; I just couldn’t believe this was happening.
“.. I met Trisha some days ago and we started talking… and soon realised that we still have feelings for each other. We were not over yet”
Trisha, his ex. He is breaking up with me because of her? I don’t believe this. I thought he told me he was over her. We had sorted it out.
He was lying to me? All the time?
“Whatever I had with you was real, but with Trisha it was something different. I don’t think I will have that with you or with anyone else. I tried, Anvesha. I really did.”
I just stood there, open mouth. I couldn’t believe any of this was happening.
I just kept staring at him not knowing what to say.
“Anvesha, are you…okay?” He asked, when I didn’t say anything for five minutes.
I was shattered. I could feel my body shivering. There was a giant lump in my throat. Any time now, I could start crying.
But I didn’t want to. In front of him, atleast.
I didn’t feel like fighting back, or asking him to change his mind or threaten him. I don’t know why, maybe because I was expecting something like this. Maybe I didn’t notice his subtle hints about it. Maybe I was too much in love with him.
“If that’s what you really want, then I am okay with it.”
I wasn’t.
He stared and blinked at me. I guess, he was expecting me to put up a fight, some drama. But I didn’t.
I just let him go. I don’t know if I was doing the right thing, but at that time, it felt right.
I didn’t want him to give me ‘we can be friends’ speech and he didn’t.
He leaned forward to give me a goodbye kiss but I turned around. A tear trickled down my
face.
I heard his footstep leaving the tower.