There are things you know about yourself
but you don’t want to accept it.
Good and bad things. Mostly bad.
There is always something, you try to hide
it , avoid it, run away from it. But it comes back to you in the end.
There are many things I love about
myself, but the things I hate about myself probably outnumber them.
One thing I believe i am unable to do is trust someone.. I can’t do that.
When I was in school, there was this guy
in my class I had a crush on. He was cute but
little weird. Being weird is kinda difficult in school. Not many people
liked him.
So once, casually, while playing some
stupid game I told (who I thought was) my best friend about this crush of mine.
And she rattled about it to everyone. I was so embarrassed.
That is the earliest memory of having my
“trust broken”
It seems silly now, but then it was a
big deal.
My friends kinda hate me for not sharing
stuff with them. I regret it.
Weird I am.
I want to share, I just don’t know if I
should.
I come across situations where I dunno
what to do. And I know, it will be better to ask someone. But then telling them
about it, and trusting them with it….?!
I don’t want to be like this, to be
scared.
I know people who have “BFF’s” whom they
share their entire life with.
I want such people in my life too. Maybe
I have them, or maybe I lost them already because I didn’t open myself up to
them.
Well, I am trying. I really am.
This is the one thing I don’t like about
me.
Is there anything like that about you?
